Tenacity. How much do I want the goals I set for myself? The years from 30 to 40 have been years when I finally developed some tenacity. I completed tasks that i had attempted to finish years ago. Some kind of minor (a driver’s license) some much more important (the college degree). Is it pathetic that it took so long for me to get there?

I think the biggest obstacle to developing tenacity for me was believing that the end result was worth the effort and agony. I am too easily stressed out when I don’t have 100% control over the situation and too often the end results don’t seem worth all the stress.

I’m getting better at it…

What we see is a reflection of who we are. This really goes well with yesterdays card. Connection. I don’t want to see myself reflected in others. I don’t recognize the positive reflection of myself and I don’t want to see the negative. It’s too hard to face the reality sometimes.

The things that most aggravate me in others reflect both the things I don’t WANT to be and the things I AM that embarrass and frustrate me.  This reality explains a lot of my unwillingness to connect. It’s a big brick in that wall around myself.